Another Case of "Is It Just Me?"
I swear, every time something in my life that pertains to relationships or the opposite sex seems to be going right, it turns around and ends up fucked.
I honestly believe now that it is indeed, me.
I think me and the opposite sex are not destined to have anything lasting. I can count on one hand, in my entire 60 years, where I have ended a relationship. Beyond those, I've been the one kicked to the curb.
In less than two months, I have had a relationship that I thought was really going somewhere with someone who appreciated moving slow, and enjoyed the idea that being an individual was paramount. Then, out of the clear blue I get kicked back into the friend-zone, and now, I don't hear from her even as a friend. Whatever.
Three days ago, I met a woman from a platonic cuddling site. We met in public, had coffee, and seem to hit it off well enough to do the platonic cuddling thing. Started great, and then about an hour in SHE gets very touchy feely, and we end up making out, and then end up naked. She ended up staying for a while, we talked, seemed to connect and made it clear that we were individuals and that we were both looking for a companion to ease some loneliness and touch depravity we were both feeling.
She left after over 5 hours at my place and she seemed very interested in me. I messaged her, told her hope her days was going well, she responded. Monday, I texted her asking if she had plans. Silence. Today, texted her again asking the same thing. 5 hours later, still no reply.
Fucking hell.
So yeah, I feel like I am either overthinking things or this is just another fickle woman who likes me at first and then doesn't. I'm honestly, tired of this shit. It's not like I am asking a lot. It's not like I am not being upfront. I don't know what the problem is and honestly, I'm tired of constantly troubleshooting every female connection.
I think it's time that I just stop trying. Stop putting myself out there only to be tossed aside once again. They all end the same. But, I know my flesh is weak and if an opportunity arises to make a connection, I will probably pounce on it. Stupid me.